Time moves fast and change happens fast. In fact you’re probably very familiar with the phrase “The only constant in life is change”.
Two months to the day shy of the two year anniversary of welcoming our first born Charlotte Poppy Hannigan into the world, we had the joyous occasion of meeting our second born daughter Clara Bee Hannigan. (You may remember me sharing our story)
Almost two years? Could that be? Charlotte, and parenthood for that matter, exploded into our lives. She changed and challenged our sense of sleep, energy, patience, ability to love, and our previously held thresholds of what a safe level of caffeine intake looks like in a single day. Our heads haven’t stopped spinning. Time moves and change happens Fast.
It’s safe to say that Kate has fairly rough pregnancies, she tries to downplay it, but believe me… there is nothing glamorous about being pregnant. Seemingly endless months of all day nausea and occasional trips to yack on the big white telephone, pregnancy is not her friend.
She has bravely and graciously gone through two terms and delivered two beautiful girls to us. Illness aside, Clara’s pregnancy was not all smooth sailing. It seemed every trip to the doctor would bring with it cause for some concern, or another test, or scan, or a “wait and see”.
Time moves slowly.
After one last trip and a new concern, we had a C section date created and then eventually bumped forward. We had a week to prepare and a week to watch and wait while hoping that everything would be ok. Nights of worry and uncertainty and days spent longing to hold our baby. Seven days never felt so long, yet there was so much to be done.
Time moves fast and slowly. Change happens fast and slowly.
In comparison to Charlotte’s lengthy labour and finally, emergency C section; showing up to the hospital at a specific time and taken directly into surgery prep seemed like a breeze. Never has major abdominal surgery felt like a such a convenience and a relief. On August 21, 2018, at 9:21 am we welcomed Clara Bee into our lives. Instantly we fell in love. We stretched our hearts immediately with a new capacity to love…just like that quote from the Grinch.
Six years ago I would have had a hard time wrapping my brain around being married, having two kids, and living a sudo-suburban lifestyle. How could that much change happen so quickly? How in one instant can we have the only the capacity to love one child wholeheartedly and in the next it be instantly doubled? Change happens fast and slow.
In a world of rapidly leaping technology and a breakneck political theatre-scape, what seems like endless amounts of change are actually results of a larger arc. These larger stories are made up of many decisions, plans, and changes put into motion over days, weeks, months, years, and even generations. Fast change is all apart of slow change over long periods of time. The same is applicable to our lives.
We now have two children? (insert expletives here) What? How? When? (some may ask why?). Weren’t we just getting used to being a parent and now we are responsible for two lives?
Charlotte and now Clara did not just appear in the last two years. Subconsciously and consciously we have been preparing our entire lives. We make plans as kids of what our lives will look like. Kate, as a little girl, had dreams of one day having FIVE kids (heaven help me). We started dating and almost immediately started talking about our ideal futures and families. We got married. We bought a house. We had Charlotte. We now have Clara. Change happens slowly. Change is a process.
Change is constant and without it time, at some level doesn’t exist. I only hope that our time moves slowly enough that we can savour every last moment of it with our newly expanded family.
Take as many moments as you can to appreciate time and the change that happens within it. Make conscious choices to affect positive change, you never know where that will take you.